Mind Reader, I am not

I am many things to many people. I am a mom, a wife, a student, a daughter of Heavenly Father, a sister, a daughter of Garth and Lori, a supervisor to around 50 people on any given day, a friend, a primary leader, to many walmart customers who try and return things that they didn't pay for or who I deny selling them beer or cigarettes I am a bitch. So I can be many things and any given time. One thing I cannot do no matter how hard I try is read minds. I wish I could. It would make my relationship with my husband improve, it would make my life easier with my kids because then I would know why they hit the other person and I would be able to calm the many emotions that a tween has but doesn't dare tell her parents out of embarrassment or fear.

One of the things that I have had to work on is to tell people what my problem is so that they know how to fix it. I have worked on this with my husband a lot. I have had to learn to communicate with him what I need him to get done so that I don't have angry pent up feelings toward him. I have to tell Lexi specifically what she needs to get done because if I tell her things in general terms they don't get done.

In doing that though, I want them to tell me what things they need. If Lexi needs me to do something she needs to tell me and not try to make me guess what it is she needs done. If Josh wants me to rub his back then he needs to tell me to rub his back and not sit over there in pain and hope and try to send subliminal messages to me to have me rub his back. I can't read minds people!

This is why I have learned to just say what you need and want. There are times when it is really hard to let others know what you want from them. It takes a lot of humbling to get to the point where you need to ask others to help you and sometimes it isn't always fun to have to admit that you need something. There are other times when you need to say something so that things do not continue festering and causing problems. There are other times when things are said to get advice. Not out of hurt or anger but simply to understand and to be able to help both parties involved out. There are times when actually saying something can be scary, but sometimes it helps getting it out more than it does staying in.

I long for the day when I can be a mind reader, but for now I can not. I understand that in heaven you can read minds so I may just have to wait until I am exalted or reach that 10 in spirituality. Until then this is what you get, someone who longs to understand and can't read between the lines and needs things to just be said.