I don't even know where to begin on this post. I have so much stuff going on in my head. I am ornery and everything is just bugging me today and I don't know why. I guess we can start back at the beginning.

Josh has been having pains in his stomach for about a week. I think the first time he really complained a lot about it was last thursday and he just whined and moaned and was ornery. I told him on Friday that he needed to go to the doctor and he said no that it would go away. Saturday it still hurt. He said it felt like someone had punched him in the stomach and his kidneys were hurting. Again I told him to go to the doctor. Sunday he said that he was feeling better and that he didn't have a lot of pain anymore. Then yesterday he said that the pain had come back about noon time and he said that he should go to the doctor this time. We went to the insta care and they told him to go to the ER if he was in a lot of stomach pain. He wasn't going to go, but I think he was getting tired of me and tired of being in pain so he went to the ER. We got there about 5:45 p.m. and the kids were being loud and I had a class so Josh told me to take the kids and go home. I left my class at 8 p.m. and he was still sitting in the waiting room. He finally got back around 8:30. After his exam it was decided that he had an appendicitis. He did have a CT scan to check his kidneys and as far as we know everything turned out o.k. with them. Surgery was scheduled for 5:30 this morning.

Kayden had a doctors appointment at 9 a.m. at PCMC. So I took Kayden to his appointment this morning and Lexi and Koy came with. Kayden lost 5 pounds since April, his creatinine went up, he is dry (dehydrated) and isn't eating like he should. He has to go and have another lab draw on Thursday or Friday morning to check his levels again. Before then he has to make sure he gets 1.5 liters of water in him during the day. Cindy wants him to start getting an additional half a box of food at night and to be on a high calorie/high fat diet.

Josh had his surgery this morning and now here is the rest of his story. When they got in they found that the appendix was too big to remove laparoscopically so they had to make an incision and remove the appendix. It had preforated and was really large and had some necrosis to it. The doc had told him that if he hadn't come in when he did, he would have been there later on in the night because he would have been really sick. He is now in the hospital till at least Thursday possibly Friday.

I have been ornery with the kids because they do not listen to me. I hate having to explain to them why I said No and I feel like I have every right to say No. I don't like listening to them whine because they don't like my answer, or cry and throw a fit because they don't like my answer. I am tired of being asked if they can have a sleepover and having them ask me in front of their friends. I am tired of asking them to do something and then cry because they have to actually do it then when I ask. I am tired of fighting with them, I am tired of them being disrespectful to me. I asked Lexi tonight if she would act the way she is acting with dad and she said absolutely not. I told her to stop acting that way with me.

I have homework in my history class that needs to get done by Friday and I have a 6 page research paper that has to be done by next wednesday. I had to miss my class tonight because I didn't have time to get my kids food and things done before class and I didn't want to leave the kids alone that whole time. I am overwhelmed with my house that is messy and needs to be cleaned and all my laundry that needs to be done. I am just bugged.

I know that I need to get up and run in the morning and in fact that is something I have found that helps me not be ornery during the day. It gets me up and I get things accomplished. I am definitely going to be asking Heavenly Father for some patience tomorrow so that I don't get annoyed with my kids and everything else that is going on. I pray that I can get my homework done, clean my house, do my laundry, and be pleasant with my kids.