90 more days

So we have 90 more days before Josh can come home and be with us all of the time. Do you know how hard that is going to be at this time of year. He will be gone for Thanksgiving, Christmas, our one year transplant anniversary, everything that goes along with the holidays. The good thing is he is approved for work release so he will be able to leave during the day and go to work and our attorney is going to work on getting him home for Thanksgiving day and for Christmas Day. But I don't want to be doing this anymore. I don't want to be the one to make everything happy anymore. I wish that someone else could do this because I don't want to anymore.

I know that it could be worse but right now this seems horrible. I know that we will be able to see him more than we have in the past, it just would have been nice to have him home with us now.

So now I have the unfortunate task of having to make the holidays happy. I have to put on the happy face even though inside I don't want to. I have to at least bring some happiness to my kids so that they don't have lasting effects from this unfortunate circumstances that we are in. I have to make sure that my kids have Christmas no matter what and that they are taken care. How hard that is going to be and how much I will need to rely on my Heavenly Father to make it happen. Somehow all of us will have a christmas this year and we will be taken care of.