This post is not going to be pretty. I feel a lot of times we only want to put the good and happy things on our blogs and we leave out the down and ugly "real life" things. Nobody wants to put their feelings out there for others to see, but sometimes it is necessary to put the "real life" things out there in order to make others see that things aren't always great for everyone and that it is possible for life to go on even when your world has stopped turning.
Now I don't want make anyone think that something bad has happened because things are truly going great for us. We both have jobs and we are doing things as a family. Yeah the economy sucks right now but we know what we need to do in order to make ends meet. I do get tired of people bragging about things that they purchase knowing full well that they cannot afford it at all and making everyone think that they are living the high life. I think that is just a bunch of bunk. At this point I am glad that we can't get any credit. We have been in the situation where we got a lot of stuff with easy to access credit cards and then life happened and we had to claim bankruptcy. I am actually glad that we do not own a credit card and that we pay for everything with cash. With christmas coming up in a few months I can honestly say that in 10 years of being married we have never put any of our christmas purchases on a credit card and that won't change this year. This christmas will be a little slim and tight but we will be just fine.
The whole reason for this post was to just vent a little bit about how overwhelmed I am right now. I know that all you mom's out there know exactly what I mean when I talk about how the laundry is piling up, the kids don't listen to a single word you say, they are arguing and fighting with each other, the house needs to be cleaned, the dishes need to be done and lunch and dinner need to be prepared. My work schedule is from 6 p.m. to 2:30 a.m. and I get to bed around 3 a.m. then the kids wake up around 6:30 and 7 a.m. so I am averaging about 3 hours of sleep a night. This has been going on since Monday and won't stop until this upcoming Monday. The first few days I was doing o.k. and I kept up on things. I even got Kayden to transplant clinic to get weighed, went to the Library (which I would rather be hung by my hair than take my boys to the library again) thoroughly cleaned the bathrooms and the floors and that was all done before Wednesday. (I am really picky about my floors I think that the only way to get them clean is to clean them with Pinesol, which I love!, and down on my hands and knees with a rag and a brush. It is a little overboard, but I don't have the funds to purchase a nice floor cleaner that I like at the moment.)
Yesterday, however, was when everything changed. Kayden and Koy decided that they did not like each other a majority of the day and then when they did like each other they decided to get into trouble together. They fought, chased the dogs, tore up newspapers and ran around the house without clothes on after I had clothed them about 3 times. While I was cleaning the kitchen Kayden was making a mess in the front room and Koy was getting into something in my bedroom and this happened more than once. The kitchen had not been cleaned up from the night before and the laundry that Lexi was suppose to go through had not been touched. All with me running on 9 hours of sleep in the past 3 days. So today I will suffer through another day being exhausted and hopefully today I will be able to take a nap this afternoon while Koy is taking a nap. Lexi will be here to watch Kayden and make sure he isn't getting into anything. I will have worked Monday-Friday 6 p.m to 2:30 a.m. and then I have to go back to work on Saturday during the day from 10 a.m. to 7 p.m. then again on Sunday from 7 p.m. to 10 p.m. and then finally have a break on Monday. While I am glad that I have a job to pay the bills and make ends meet, I don't have to like it all of the time. I feel like I do have a right to complain about it every once in awhile. (While I was editing this Kayden decided to shove 10 DVD's into the VCR portion of our DVD player!!!)
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From one mom to another... "Hang in there!" I hope you can find the strength to do so. Oh the joys of motherhood. :)
I completely understand what you mean about not liking your job and everyone has the right and just venting about it makes you feel better. I had the same thing this week and after a month and a half of being sick and a week being away after surgery, coming back to things being completely changed on me and I didn't know... I just wanted to vent and I cried and cried. Because they kept asking me to put in extra hours. I physically could not do that. All I wanted to do was vent to someone and all I got was "be glad you have a job right now" so I thought I couldn't vent after that and I kept it in and when I got home every day this week, I cried. So I know what you mean.
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