Discouraging Day

We are in the process of getting things ready to move to Salt Lake. I had applied at an apartment complex and things were looking good and then I talked to them today and found out that things weren't so good. They require that your income has to be 3 times the amount of rent, well that just screwed us out of that possibility. So then I find some apartments online that are income restricted apartments and thought that those were possibilities and then I find out that because of Josh's history we are not eligible for that place. I feel like me and my kids were totally discriminated against by people who totally did not even want to give us a chance. We are not bad people. I understand that my husband did things that were wrong but does every single person that has done something wrong deserve to be treated like crap for the rest of their lives along with their family.

We are going to have to find either a townhouse, or condo, or home (even if it is a little more a month). I found a place that is a possibility and would be willing to allow us to move in as soon as possible. It isn't too much more than what we would have been paying in an apartment. We just need to pay the deposit and 1st months rent as soon as possible. The earlier the better our chance is at getting the place. The only downfall to that now is that we are waiting for our economic stimulus money to get here and that is what we were going to use for the deposit and 1st month's rent but we haven't got that money yet. We were not aware that the money would be sent to us by paper even though we had direct deposit for our tax refund. It just sucks really bad. I am feeling very discouraged about this whole thing.

The other horrible thing that happened today is how difficult the boys have been today. I feel like I have been through a battle with them. Koy getting into everything, Kayden pushing Koy around, Koy pushing Kayden around, and to top it off Kayden and Koy playing inside my parents coal burning stove. The opened up the door to the stove and pretty much played in the ashes inside as if they were playing in a sand pile. They were covered in head to toe in ashes. I put them in the tub and the water just turned BLACK. I had to fill the tub up few times with fresh water and turn the shower on in order to get them cleaned up. It was just a really bad day.

I would like to ask for your prayers on my families behalf so that we can find a place to live in order for us to relocate and for Josh to be able to go to school and basically start fresh in a new place. Right now I don't feel like things are going our way.